I went shopping this afternoon with Cole in tow, I got some pretty neato stuff.

The air conditioning system has died here in this half of the building, and it’s HOOOOT up in this motherfucker! Fucking hell, someone just called and requested Night Ranger… ::puts head down until it passess::

Speaking of Hot, Mr. Scott was thanking me at the school for the cds I made that he asked for. He’s going to make a list of other stuff he wants me to burn for him. You know, it should be a fucking criminal act to be THAT fine and heterosexual. Same thing with Eddie.

Sunday is Easter, and I was in the shower earlier this morning thinking about the time I found out the real deal on the Easter Bunny, the Tooth Fairy, Santa Claus, and followed it all up with God. I remember the Easter Bunny being revealed to me vividly. That will be a separate post altogether.

Steve, our tech guy, has been all OVER the last 2 problems I’ve thrown at him, and I must say I’m very pleased about this. The service guy for the company that maintains the AC here just called to say he was on his way. GO STEVE!! GO STEVE!! ::mah-innnnn…. mah-innnn..:: ::does the cabbage patch::

That’s one of the things I’m lacking is new pictures. I’ve got to make my list of things I need to shop for anyway, might as well get Cole some camera film as well so he can take pictures with me. Rather than go through all that trouble, I’m just going to have the new pics put on cd-rom and be done with it. They’re so much more easily accessible that way. The “Irony” shot I wanted to do will not work in my chosen spot, as at no time of day will the light be conducive to capturing the image I want onto film.

AOL is completely pissing me off. Each time I try to update my homepage, they give me this bullshit error message about having no space left to upload images. Fucking fascist bastards, the lot of them.

Been listening to a LOT of Jeff Buckley lately. It’s so strange, there are so many prophetic things in his lyrics. I’ve never heard anyone sing quite like him before, with the exception of his father Tim Buckley. This Mortal Coil have covered several of Tim Buckley’s songs, most notably “Song To The Siren” from their first album “It’ll End In Tears”. On their second album, “Filigree And Shadow”, they retooled “Morning Glory” and “I Must Have Been Blind”.

I finally found my copy of the acoustic “Lover, You Should’ve Come Over” which is one of my favorite versions of the song. I’m telling you, between him and Jennifer, I’d give all MY blood to have someone feel about me the way they feel about the people in their songs.

I’m trying to get Jennifer to start an LJ. She can post a link onto her website and her fans can keep up with her goings-on when she’s on the road, recording, etc. etc.

I’m going to email Daniel and ask him for a code, I figure he owes me that much if nothing else.

That is, of course, unless someone ELSE has a code thay can email me.

Kevin emailed me, just to say hello and let me know he was thinking about me. Even asked me to give him a call. ::struts, does the happy dance::

In a word, WOOHOO!!

I’m very happy to see that an olive branch of sorts has been extended to me/us! I’m of the opinion that anyone brave enough to do that HAS to be respected for bravery and decency if nothing else.

I’m looking forward to this, especially with the conditional “No bitching, no whining, no bullshit, no drama*) clauses for meeting. Just NOT in Denny’s, please - hell, I’d just as soon meet at the BK Lounge on Wynnton Road as meet there, at least there’s some privacy at BK.

* = my own addition

There’s this ongoing war in that started because I was banned by the guy that runs the community, .

It’s to the point of it being ridiculous and farcical. Then I catch my own userinfo page and see that I have been reinstated, as it were, and am free to post on the page now.

Shared Journal Access: judebennett can post to

Hmmm… “WOLF!” cries the boy.

This guy has made many racially and homophobically derogatory epithets and apparently denies being racist and/or homophobic. Then I get cleared to post on the page again as if it were a peace offering or something. At least that is what I’m discerning from all of this.

It’s really sad that these guys are behaving as badly as they are. I looked at Jilt’s website and the layout of it is pretty stellar actually. He is clearly talented and I’d venture to say very smart, but ruins it all with this attitude. Pacwastaken I am trying to find at least ONE redeeming thing about, but that is difficult in light of him throwing those things out and then recanting as if it were never meant to be offensive and was acceptable.

I suppose I’m just a little cynical about the whole thing now. Sooner or later we’re all bound to run into one another, whether by chance or by default. It might have actually been nice to have exchanged ideas at least once.

1.Do you shave?
yup
2.What do you shave?
not my eyelashes, anything else is fair game from time to time
3.Why?
because I’m not fond of hair
4.What color is your razor?
Mach 3 thingy
5.What size is your bed?
full
6.Do you like it?
it serves me well
7.You’re going on a date for a walk around the lake then a coffee at a cafe. What do you wear FROM your closet?
last “date” I went on I wore army green cargo pants and a t-shirt
8.Would you go naked in a bathtub with a naked old man/woman with each of you having a bar of soap and soap each other till the bars of soap run out for a million dollars?
being that anyone a year older than me is “older”, um… YEAH!
9.If you woke up one morning and found out you were going to stay in the body you have now for the rest of your life, what would you think?
“It’s Tuesday already?”
10. Letter or E-mail?
letter
11.If World War III broke out, what would you say?
“Sorry, don’t ask, don’t tell - YOU made the rules, quit yer bitchin’”
12.Buttons or boxers?
boxers
13. Which 5 people do you trust and are open with the most?
Maggie, Nathan, Cole, Shannon, Mac
14.What’s something a guy/girl will wear that’ll turn you off?
drag
15.What’s something a guy/girl will wear that’ll turn you on?
a “Fuck racist, homophobic white trash” t-shirt
16. What do you think of soulmates?
that mine is Maggie
17.Florida or Cali?
Florida
18.Is the world screwed?
not if you’re dead
19.Is cussing a neccesity in life?
FUCKIN’ A!
20.What’s an object you can’t live without?
the quilt I sleep on that my mama made for me
21.Can you live without the microwave?
sure
22.You have this uh, erotic dream about your friend of the opp. sex. how do you act and feel around that friend the next day?
Maggie said “I’ve dreamt that about you too, and might I say that you can hold your breath for fucking EVER!”
23.Would you rather be rich with 15 spoiled brats or just barely making it with a dog?
you had me at “kids” - anyone who knows me or Cole knows that he’s rotten
24.How’s your schoolwork for you right now?
Dude, I’m 31 years old
25.What’s something someone’s done to make you hold a grudge against them?
if I’ve made an emotional investment and you hurt me deliberately, then FUCK you - you’re dead to me. I don’t believe in forgiveness
26.Favorite weather?
warm
27.What’s one physical trait that attracts you to a guy/girl?
hygiene is a plus
28.What’s one personality trait that attracts you to a guy/girl?
being forward and not holding things back
29.Do you know what 143 means?

30.Who’s phone number are you hoping to get?
I just want Kevin to use the one I gave him
31.Describe melancholy, if you don’t know, then skip this question.
Depressed Light�
32.Describe mellow.
The resulting 6 hours of a smack high
33.Do you believe in ghosts?
I believe in energy
34.What time did you go to sleep last night?
around 1 or so
35.Which guy/girl do you wish to be with RIGHT now?
Kevin
36.Is it right to flirt if you have a bf/gf?
so long as there’s no blatant disrespect, it is harmless
37.Would you rather be married in Venice, Italy, or Honolulu, Hawaii?
Vermont
38.Would you rather eat sandwiches or pasta for the rest of your life?
ooh - that’s hitting below the belt!
39.(guys) how would you feel if you gave a girl a flower?
I love giving flowers
40.Do you want to drop school?
much too late for any of that
41.What do you think of the word, “no pain, no gain” ?
true dat
42.What do you think of the quote “eyes are the passageways into the soul” ?
what a bunch of pretentious horseshit
43.What do you think of sleep?
that i don’t ever get enough of it
44.If you had the chance to slow down your growth now and live to 500 years but it’s like a 50 year old body by then, would you go for it?
I’m already tired, fuck THAT noise
45.At one point in a girl/guy friendship will one of them like each other even if it’s only for a little bit. true or false?
that’s all subjective and conditional upon other things, but very likely I think
46.Are you a procrastinator?
I used to be, my mother told me once I’d
ever amount to anything because I always procrastinate - I told HER “… Just wait…”
47.Waffles or pancakes?
what, are you INSANE? PANCAKES!
48.How’s your cereal in your bowl?
dry
49.What’s an annoying trait about you?
according to my female friends, it’s that pesky “Homo” thing
50.Football or rugby?
neither - baseball’s where it’s at
51. Hat or visor?
nope, nope, nope
52.Ice skating or rollerblading?
biking
53. Your bf has hair you love. he comes to school the next day with a shiny head. what do you HONESTLY think?
“RRROOOWWRRR!!”
54.Pizza or burgers?
pizza with pesto, artichokes, tomatoes, and mushrooms
55.What color is your jacket?
it’s a customized “Jennifer Nettles Band” jacket
56.What’s something you ALWAYS have on you?
chapstick
57.What do you think of guys with nailpolishes?
ACK!!
58.Do you stay in bed thinking or do you fall alseep in 5 seconds?
I read myself to sleep
59.would you rather go to a boarding school, private school, or an all girls or guys school?
you’re kidding, right?
60.There’s a high school that’ll be on a cruise ship and you have the opportunity to go. it’s your last year at school. do you go for it?
HELL no
61.Who do you want to take with you to the prom?
Oh Jesus H. Christ on a flaming biscuit…
62.Your bf/gf gets drunk at a party. In their state of drunkness, they babble about that one time they fooled around with someone else while you were together. They wake up the next morning with a slight memory that did something stupid. What do you do?
I would stare at them until they realized they were in restraints and then….
63.Is cyber sex considered cheating?
are you getting off? then YES, I believe it is…
64.How do you react to change?
depends on what it involves and how I’m affected
65.Are you happy?
I’m content, but I could be happy - it’s a state of mind and an act of will
66.Favorite berries?
raspberries
67.What’s one facial feature you’d like to change about yourself?
I’m content with myself
68.Do you take a shower after a bath?
no - that’s a waste of water, man
69.What’s color’s your towel?
we have one that everyone in the house shares, and I forgot what color it was… ::thwaps the person who made up that question::
70.What do you think of knuckle cracking?
that mine are REALLY loud
71.What was the last thing you cried over or got teary about?
Cole
72.Chalk or crayons?
sidewalk chalk
73.How’s your happiness level right now?
right about 7 where it is normally
74.Coffee or tea?
coffee in the AM, tea in the evening
75.Wouldn’t you just love to hug someone right now?
i just did like 5 minutes ago (Renea)
76.Who was the last person who complimented you?
Renea
77.What’s wrong with your school?
it was run by christers
78.Do you know what an aphrodisiac is?
yes, and a chocolate malt is the best one of them all
79.Who do you wish you could kiss?
Kevin
80.Movies at home on in a theater?
at home
81.Wanna live in a castle?
I do
82.Isn’t gondola a cool word?
not as cool as “Discombobulated”
83.What coat do you wear in the winter?
my JNB jacket
84.what’s something about guys you don’t get?
ego
85.what’s something about girls you don’t get?
attracted
86.Who was better in rush hour/rush hour 2?
um… the caterer?
87.If someone said you were hot, what would you think?
I’d think “You just like me because I know all of the dirty things you like doing”
88.You go to your bf/gf’s house for the first time and in his/her room, and everywhere is… you. what do you think?
I’d think “Awww, honey! I never knew you were psychotic!”
89.What happens when you hear the word christmas?
I think “YAY!! GIFTMAS!!”
90.Does being a psycho sound appealing?
not at all… SHUT UP, RENEA!
91.What food brings back good memories?
steak brings back memories of… five minutes ago.
92.Do you talk to yourself?
no
93.Sun or moon?
sun
94.What’s your opinion on love?
it must be nice
95.What’s a happy memory of a time you’ve spent with the opp. sex?
doing anything with Maggie
96.Would you rather go ballroom dancing or square dancing? UGH!
97.Do you think you
can afford to lose weight?
no - but I can afford to tone up
98.If you could dye your hair any color, what would you dye it?
i don’t like having enough hair to dye
99.What’s the nicest thing any one has ever told you? Maggie telling me that I was her rock
100.If you were to spend the day with your b/f or g/f, where would you go and what would you do?
at home doing absolutely nothing but being cuddly