Happy halloween all!

For anyone who wants to tag along, we’re going to visit Crybaby Bridge at midnight. If you want to come, bring a jacket and meet us at the gas station on the corner of Double Churches Road and Whitesville Road at 11:30. Bring a flashlight and wear a jacket, it will be colder there since it’s a low lying area and the creek water below the bridge is freezing. Not that we’re getting in the water, mind you, but you get the idea. If you have a camera, bring it. There are strange goings on out there at night, especially on Halloween. This whole trip was my niece Haley’s idea, and she will be riding with us. This is the child who laughed through the Amityville Horror and loves ghost stories.

To learn more about the legend of Crybaby bridge, click here. And here. And here.

Conservatives Call Gay Adoption Study A ‘Farce”
by 365Gay.com Newscenter Staff

Posted: October 30, 2003 8:11 p.m. ET

(Washington, D.C.) Conservative Christian political organizations Thursday trashed a study showing 60 percent of adoption agencies allow gays and lesbians to adopt.

The study, released yesterday by the Evan B. Donaldson Adoption Institute also showed that public agencies were more likely to allow gays to adopt than religious based agencies (story).

The most strident attack on the survey comes from the Family Research Council which called it a “fraud”.

FRC President Tony Perkins said the study should be discounted because it was financed by the gay-positive group Rainbow Endowment.

“It amounts to little more than propaganda being circulated by the homosexual community itself,” Perkins said in a statement.

He said that that a close examination of the findings of this study shows that only 4 out of 10 adoption agencies they contacted responded to the survey.

“With such a small sample size,” Perkins’ statement said, “and with the knowledge that agencies who are receptive to homosexual adoption would be the most apt to respond to the survey, it is impossible to declare that this study is based on scientific fact.”

Perkins then asserts in the statement that it is too dangerous to allow children to be adopted by gay couples.

“Children raised in homosexual households are more likely to experiment with homosexuality, to be sexually promiscuous, and to have behavioral and many other developmental problems,” Perkins stated in the release. “Rather than worrying about a homosexual adult’s desire to be a parent we should be concerning ourselves with what is in the best interest of the child.”

Interesting, they make the completely unfounded assertion that this survey was slanted in favor of predominantly “Liberal” agencies, as if any adoption agency were in the business of just throwing any old kid with anyone - as long as they weren’t conservative - and that would be just fuckin’ peachy. Perkins ascertains that “It amounts to little more than propaganda being circulated by the homosexual community itself”, then goes on to say “Children raised in homosexual households are more likely to experiment with homosexuality, to be sexually promiscuous, and to have behavioral and many other developmental problems…”. Um, ’scuse me, pal, but isn’t that just conservative, Republicanesque lies? I’d like to know where that information was garnered, especially since he’s so gung ho “to declare that this study is based on scientific fact.” Fucking morons, I swear. And this from a group called the “Family Research Council”.

“I think it is tragic when families are torn apart… by wild dogs…”
- Jack Handey

I love this…

I feel MUCH better today than yesterday, thanks to all my well wishers. Will most likely try to finish tutorials today, and get some other stuff done. I’m doing a new flyer for Damien’s candle classes, and I have posters and flyers to design for a band in New Mexico (Whiskey Downs) that I need to get out ASAP.

Does anyone have a font called “Algerian”? If so, please please PLEASE help me out - I need it in a bad way. If you have it and are willing to share, kindly send to jude@thedigitalghost.com.

Update:

I have the font now, thanks for thinking of me though…

Politically Correct Update:

I’ll love you like a Fundamentalist loves Fascism… There - argue THAT one.

I’m not in the best of moods today already… I’m looking hard to find answers to questions for pending tutorials as I’m already backlogged with requests, yet finding NO significant information, and now my fucking throat is getting sore again.

Fucking hell, man. Frustration is a motherfucker.

If only I could just go back to bed and wake up tomorrow and have everything be normal again, I would.

Last night we had a house full of people. All of the kids were here except for Haley, who will be here on Friday for the weekend. Friday being Halloween, everyone is heading over to James & Amy’s place for an early dinner and trick-or-treating in their neighborhood as it is flat and ours is nothing but hills. Then Damien and I are heading over to the ‘rents place for our own Halloween festivities and candy-giving-outing. But anyway, back to last night…

Everyone is sitting around the dining room table, we had like 5 or 6 pumpkins that James brought for the kids and they were all carving them into jack-o-lanterns. We had just finished dinner when I took notice of it. I’m looking from the other room at these children I love so much (who love me back equally) with their parents doing this rite of passage and tradition and I realize I’m the only one IN the other room and it hit me, that overwhelming sense of sadness. Because I love spending time with them, and I love cooking for them and playing games with them and kissing the boo-boos and smoothing over the arguments and telling how incredibly beautiful and smart they are…

It’s just that sometimes, not often, but sometimes, I’m made painfully aware that for all of the love I give and all of the love I get back it’s still someone else’s child. They call someone else “Daddy”. Someone else gets to take them home and carry them sleeping from the car and put them into bed. Someone else gets to wake up to them in the morning.

And sometimes, not often, but sometimes, I cry myself to sleep because that someone isn’t me.

GO MARLINS!!

::does happy dance, goes back to bed::

“I hope you know I pack a chainsaw, I’ll skin your ass raw. And if my day keeps going this way I just might break your fucking face tonight…”

I love Fred Durst. Fred is my Jesus.

I’d be in a relatively good mood today, but it is not possible when others I love are hurting. That’s all going to change soon enough, I suspect. Love wins out in the end.

So.

I plan on going over to Renea’s tonight and helping wherever I’m needed. Any of you who are able should also.

Don’t forget to set your clocks back an hour before you go to bed tonight, especially if you have to work tomorrow.

And in the odd event that you’re reading this Dianne, motherfuck you. I hope you slide under a moving 18 wheeler and taste your own blood.

Strong solar flare may impact Earth today, just in case you have problems with your cell phone or palm pilot thingamjigee, etc. etc…

I’ve been keeping up on the story of Terri Schiavo, the Florida woman in a persistive vegetative state for the past 13 years as a result of a heart attack who never wanted to be kept alive by artificial means. She has no cerebral cortex, it is just a big hole in her brain filled with spinal fluid. She cannot think, respond, or feel anything. Her husband has been trying to have her taken off life support in accordance with her wishes for the duration of her entire ordeal. The problem is that her family have been insistent that she will recover, and then fucking Jeb Bush had to step in and make it all worse. The story is all over the news this morning. From CNN: Father: Brain-damaged daughter responsive. From Fox News: Husband of Brain-Damaged Woman Says He’ll Go to Court Next Week. I’m reading it and it’s very sad. These people are in complete denial. Her husband is being put through the ringer because he has a child with a long time girlfriend that he had after Terri’s accident and also because he’s collected over $1 million in lawsuits as a result of medical malpractice suits - and none of the money has gone to Terri’s family.

Okay. Here we go. First of all, I can barely remember what was going on in my life 13 years ago. How can anyone blame this man for needing to get on with his life considering the circumstances? What, he’s supposed to pine for the rest of his life with the false hope that she will get better and make a miraculous recovery? He’s supposed to be alone because his wife is gone in the real sense of the word? In the most relevant aspect of all this, she’s been truly dead for years now - not him. And so fucking what if he’s gotten all this money, he fucking lost his WIFE, man! That cannot be replaced! Why is that even being made an issue? This money was the result of court trials that deemed those responsible incompetent and held them accountable with monetary penalties - does that replace, I mean REALLY replace, the loss of a wife, partner, lover, and soulmate?

Which brings about my next poll:

Personally, I would not want to be on life support if the doctors concluded I were unable to survive without life support and there were no chance of recovery. I think it is incredibly selfish of people who keep loved ones on life support when it is clearly not what they would have wanted. It does, in effect, go totally against the very nature of the love and trust that person thought they had in you. I have already made arrangements with someone I trust to carry out my wishes in the event that this would happen. Also, any and all of my organs that might be a benefit to someone in need will be donated and my remains cremated and scattered in the Atlantic ocean off of Amelia Island. As a child I always felt safe there and it is still my favorite R&R place on earth.

In happier, considerably more upbeat news, the Marlins beat the Yankees 6-4 and lead the World Series 3-2! I didn’t see a lot of last night’s game, but I’m going to make up for it this evening. I understand Brad Penny kicked much ass last night, totally turning around his slump. I’m predicting Pavano and Cabrera to kick ass tonight - Jihad on Jeter - that’s all I’m saying.

The Supreme Court Asshole is at it again: Scalia Blasts High Court’s Legalization of Gay Sex… In other THIS IS BULLSHIT!! news:

Committee Approves Gen Clark<
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Cracks Appear In Catholic Marriage Armor

Homosexuality Must Be Curbed: Congressman

And, for those interested, I slept TOO good last night. Oh yeah.

New WB Reality show “The Surreal Life” promises to be interesting, that’s for sure. Cast members set up in a to live in a Hollywood Hills mansion include Tammy Faye Messner (formerly Bakker), porn star Ron “The Hedgehog” Jeremy, rapper (?) Vanilla Ice, CHiPs actor Erik Estrada, former “Baywatch” actress Tracy Bingham, and “Real World: Las Vegas” cast member Trishelle. For more details on this, click here.

My question is who will Trishelle fuck first - Vanilla Ice or Ron Jeremy?

Today I’m designing an ad for Kennon, Parker, Duncan, & Key to go in some realtor’s magazine. I did one yesterday for Hilton Morgage Company that will appear on the same page. It is possible that I might have to go and photograph some of the properties with Tami (girlfriend of Ward, Maggie’s little brother and realtor with KPDK) to better fit the ad space. I’m working in a cut out template, so we’ll have to see what turns up. With any luck, I can coincide getting Avery down for a nap so Maggie can work in peace and quiet while we dip out and get pictures.

I slept for SHIT last night, I tossed and turned and thought too much which gave way to worrying about everything under the sun - mostly stupid stuff I never worry about because it cannot be changed - and worrying about my friends who deserve far more than they get. Maybe tonight I can actually manage more than a couple of hours of sleep.

I’m surprisingly chipper considering my lack of sleep, and am not being a royal bitch. The day is young, though… ::snicker::