New Years Eve Prayer
- Jeff Buckley
You my love are allowed to forget about the christmas you just spent stressed out in your parents house
You my love are allowed to shed the weight of all the years before like bad disco clothes, save them for a night of dancing, stoned with you lover
You my love are allowed to let yourself drown every night in bottomless wild and naked symbolic dreams
You my love in sleep can unlock your youth and your most terrifying magic and dreaming is for the courageous
You my love are allowed to grab my guitar and sing me idiot love songs if you lost your ability to speak, keep it down to two minutes
You my love are allowed to rot and to die and to live again more alive and incandescent than before
You my love are allowed to beat the shit out of your television
choke it’s thoughts and corrupt its mind
kill kill kill kill the motherfucker before the song of zombiefied pain and panic and malaise and its narrow right winged vision and its cheap commercial gang rate becomes the white noise of the world
(turn about is fair play)
You my love are allowed to forgive and love your television
You my love are allowed to speak in kisses to those around you and those up in heaven
You my love are allowed to show your babies how to dance full bodied, starry eyed, audacious, supernatural and glorified
You my love are allowed to suck in every single endeavor
You my love are allowed to be soaked like a lovers blanket in the New York summertime with the wonder of your own special gift
You my love are allowed to receive praise
You my love are allowed to have time
You my love are allowed to understand
You my love are allowed to love
Woman disobey
Little man believe
You my love are a rebellion
I know a lot has been said about the availability of the BBC documentary on Jeff, the amazing Everybody Here Wants You. The problem is that not as many people who want to see it have been able to see it, lack of availability or some reason or another. I hear more lamentable sadness that people haven’t seen it but desperately want to than people chiming in about how brilliant it is. And that’s just wrong, on every level.
Several months ago I wrote a post on my own journal about the first time I ever heard Jeff Buckley, when I was in New Orleans at the Mississippi River. I thought some of you might appreciate it.
I tried several times today to get “my friend” to upload it, but to no avail. Might be something to do with the fact that it’s a 583MB file, but maybe one day we’ll get lucky. Until then, have a few New Years goodies, courtesy of the niceness of “my friend” ;O}
Grace
Live, France
[53.5 MB Video Download]
Grace
Live, MTV Studios
[57.4 MB Video Download]
Mojo Pin
(Live From the 95 Glastonbury Festival)
[66.3 MB Video Download]
Satisfied Mind
Live, CBGB’s
[47.9 MB Video Download]
Interview/Live Footage
[57.5 MB Video Download]
Happy New Year, everyone. Fall in light…
A friend of ’s dies unexpectedly.
I’m already overwhelmed with the news that 116,000 people are dead from the tsunami in southern Asia, at least 1/3 of which were children. That number will climb steadily as more are found, disease outbreaks start happening, plus the lack of food, water, and medical relief. Then the fact that about 80 - 90% of the economy for these impoverished areas comes from the fishing industry, which was obliterated when the boats were destroyed in the tsunamis.
I have managed to lose a $30 gift card along with a picture that meant a lot to me that D and I got for Giftmas, and it’s really pissing me off in a ginormous way.
. Yeah. I get to talk to him precious little as it is. Fucking pisses me off that a few cunts can be so vicious and relentless that they can ruin something for someone as great as he is. Oh well, LULZ, right? Fucking wretched cunts, the lot of you. I’m throwing a party as soon as these motherfuckers get what’s coming to them, I fucking swear it. I have NO problem revelling in someone’s misery when they’ve actually earned it. Nothing Justin could have ever done wrong in his entire lifetime would have warranted the treatment he’s gotten from certain LJers. And he’s never done wrong by anyone in the two years I’ve knowen him IRL, let alone on LJ. That just confounds all of this.
What next, since I’m already on the defensive and in an extremely foul mood now that this entire motherfucking day is shot to hell?
I cannot stress how much this Mythmas meant to me on an emotional level, or how surprised I was to receive more presents this year than I have in the past 20 - no exaggeration. I spent a great deal of time with the family, which is always great. Yesterday D and I went to my father’s house for my blood-family Mythmas celebration day, which was very nice. I couldn’t recall ever seeing my father quite as talkative and animated as he was yesterday. He spent a lot of time talking to D as well which made me immensely happy.
We had some down time in the afternoon, having been the first ones to arrive, so I took him on a tour of all the places I lived when we first moved down here and got to see the old neighborhoods I’d terrorized as a kid. It was all so different seeing it as a grown up, especially with all of the new development that has happened.
I’ve collected a bunch of news links for a future News post, but am kind of avoiding my usual news services because frankly I’m overstimulated by all of the tsunami information and images. I can handle a lot of stuff on most days, but I cannot handle the seemingly endless stream of Flash-driven scenes of death, destruction, and grief. Enough is too much. Whenever I see someone in a car wreck on the road, my first instinct is to jump out and help wherever I can. I’ve done it many times before, only I cannot ever run fast enough to get to the scene to start helping out. I see tragedies like this one and all I want to do is be there to help out, with cleanup or rebuilding or giving medical assistance or grief counseling - whatever. But I can’t do that, and the guilt I feel for my good life in the wake of other’s suffering is crushing. We take SO much for granted that it is unbelievable. This is all I’m going to say about this for the time being, I cannot give it too much of myself.
I’ve been absorbing one of my Mythmas gifts, the Legacy Edition of Jeff Buckley Live At Sin-é, which is absolutely mesmerizing. I cannot wait to get the Grace Legacy Edition. Speaking of, there is now a video for my favorite Grace outtake, the immaculate Forget Her. It is part of the DVD package that comes with the 3 disc Grace Legacy Edition.
“Don’t fool yourself,
She was heartache from the moment that you met her.”
I’m counting on a quiet New Year’s Eve with the family this year. I’m planning a year-end post that represents some of the things I experienced and/or internalized this year, I’m sure it will be quite lengthy. For now, that is all.
Congratulations and tons of love and hugs to and on their most excellent news! I promised I wouldn’t give away the details about Michael’s new thing until he did himself, but I had to post something about it in the meantime. YAY!!!!!!!
Avery’s Gramdmother had pictures made of her in secret one day a few weeks ago, and gave Maggie & Nathan the pictures for Christmas. I figured since I finally had recent pictures of the Ballistic Princess™, I’d post them. Here’s my baby girl!!
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Amber Alert Issued for 2 Colorado Girls
Posted: Sunday December 26 10:20 AM CT
The
Colorado Springs Police Department and the Colorado Bureau of
Investigation issued the Amber Alert Sunday morning for the two girls
who were last seen at a hotel in Denver.
Nicole Scott, 4 yrs., white female, 3′6″, 40 lbs. with brown eyes and brown hair.
Heather Scott, 2½ yrs., white female, 3′, 35 lbs. with blue eyes and brown hait.
Police are looking for David Scott, 41, white male, 5′11″, 150 lbs with brown eyes and brown hair. He may be wearing glasses.
The suspect vehicle is a red 2004 Chrysler Sebring with Colorado license plate 958 KXP.
Information
obtained from Denver police leads police in Colorado Springs to believe
some sort of altercation or disturbance occurred in the hotel room
where the children were staying. It is believed that the children may
be in danger, police said.
Anyone with information is asked to call the Colorado Springs Police Department at 719-444-7000 or dial 911.
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